For myself, it’s the more I talk about it, the easier it is to understand, the easier, maybe, easy is not a good word. I guess the more understanding.
It shouldn’t, anyways, control your life. You still have to go on. You still have to live. You still have to nurture people in your life, your family members, you know, other members of your family, and you have to have that ability to be healthy.
Within that period of grief, it’s, with me, it immobilized me. I couldn’t think. I couldn't eat. I couldn’t do anything, and whatever religious base or spiritual base that you stand on, I think those are healthy places to be, to understand that maybe there’s just a transference, and this, the idea that it’s permanent, the loss is permanent, I think that really affected me more so than anything. You know, and then rationalizing, I suppose, and that’s what I do, I suppose, you know, with things that are bothering me, rationalizing that it’s not permanent, that I do believe in a heaven, and that’s where I believe my brother, and mother, and dad are, and I’ll meet them there.